Sometimes life throws you curve balls and stresses and strains... and when you are far away and alone, you might feel like you can choose or do anything... and when you are near and surrounded by everyone you know and love you might try harder to appease and become the reality of the thoughts and ideas of those others around you. But it is up to you to decide what is best for your own life, because you are the only ones that have to live it. Take advice that is good, consider the ideas and thoughts that are uncomfortable. Do not be afraid of what is to come if the numbers calculate right.
Live a life of hope and happiness and above all, love.